Friday, October 8, 2010

What Fuels Your Fire???

What are some topics that REALLY get you all twisted up inside?? When ignorance comes and stands in front of you, and points its righteous finger in your face, how do YOU react?? When it SCREAMS....Do you walk away?? Do you stand strong...feet planted...facing the wave of idiocy?? Do you throw your hands in the air and say to yourself..."Pfft, they'll NEVER understand!!" Do you challenge them...throw facts and figures in their face to prove YOUR point? I want YOU to tell me what some of the issues are, that you are willing to give your last breath for....

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Excuses!! GET NEW ONES!!

Ok, we all have used excuses in every aspect of our lives. I have...for work...for putting things off, for not wanting to cook. Never have I used a certain excuse for the place I am in this universe.

From the time I was 6 years old, I knew that life was going to be a road of many lefts, rights and u-turns....and some ABRUPT stops along the way. We all know what those stops in life feel like...the brakes lock...our hands go out in front of us....they take hold of the dash...our hearts are in our esophagus...Every time that happens, we all say to our inner-selves.."My heart is going to EXPLODE if that happens again!!" Some of us, when those stops happen, leave the road a u-turn or say…“Fuck it...Let someone else drive…”

For those people who, choose to get off the road, usually take another mode of transportation through life. They are usually the ones who…“grab a coat-tail"...."get on the bandwagon"..."join the crowd". Those people that choose this usually don't have an excuse of their own...they borrow the "Book of Excuses Handed Down for YEARS"!!

They are the type of people who stand behind someone who makes actual sense and say, "Yeah, what he/she said...I agree....that's what I said...Uh huh...RIGHT!!..."


In the comments I received on a previous post, the more I read, "You wouldn't understand because you're NOT black" the more I felt my insides SCREAMING...."Are you fucking serious?? Is that all you have?? STOP!!! "

I have plenty of "colored" friends....I say "colored" because with the way I see the world...all my friends have many different shades of epidermis's...I seriously can not choose a color, even though you do, for my friends to be labeled on the "color wheel of life"!!

I equate that excuse to "You wouldn't understand because my hair is brown". is simply said because you fail to hold others to their own personal responsibility.

Do you think my opinions or personal observations sounded senseless? Just repeat my original question to yourself several times while looking at a picture of planet earth. The question? "Why are you using the same old excuse?"

** You wouldn't understand because you're not BLACK**

Is it a way to avoid personal responsibility? Maybe you'll be able to realize from pondering that image of (EARTH), that we all have the same needs, desires, and wants in life. External influences may shape us differently in terms of preferences, but it's all the same shit. All differences that create the contrast between the races are man made, therefore when we are born into this world we are all the same originally, it's the life's experiences that change things.

Did you HEAR ME?????? I think this is the point where I grab my megaphone and scream the following:


If any of the comments contained any reference to the color of one's skin, then they are guilty of colorism!

NOT once, did I mention ANYTHING about race.... I DID say that one of the comments listed was full of gibberish. Stop continuing the same fucked up cycle of colorism...!! Skin Color Paradox...Get over yourself…seriously. When you put the proverbial divider up (because I am not black) are not separating me from you but rather yourself from me!!

The main point of my previous posts was not to bring up ANYTHING pertaining to color/race...As stated before...I wasn't the one, who twisted this blog, from the topic of Suicide=Coward,Sell-out..Etc. etc.

Oh, and him being a selfish person. Twisting things...hmmm. One of the comments alluded to the fact that one of the readers was trying to figure out who I am...and automatically assuming I knew the individual who posted my blog to a facebook page... Neato! If what you are reading offends you...GOOD! If you don't like it...then don't read Simple.

You may like the color green...I may not. I may like Cool Whip over Ready Whip....SO FUCKING WHAT!!

Until you STOP using the same excuses over and over and over and over and over...How the HELL do expect to change things??

I call your BLUFF....and I burned your "race card"...and "religion card"......Now, without using either of those topics/excuses...Address the questions I have asked.... I will stay away for a few minutes so that you can Google your responses... In the meantime...the pictures on this page is how I see people, who use excuses....makes me LOL.

**Remember -  If you can't use that "certain" excuse nor are you to bring up religion...Let's see what kind of hand you play when those cards have been taken out of the deck....

Monday, October 4, 2010

Damn thing said I had tooooo many characters!

This is a response to a comment on my previous post,
 "WTF....He Blew his F**king Head Off!"! Damn blogger thingy said I had too many characters...

Dear ambusc2009

After reading your first sentence, Miss Burns, I am inclined to remind you that I have the 1st Amendment right to speak about anything I want, in any way I feel. Nowhere in the 1st Amendment does it say that I can have the right to talk about anything….but there are some emotions you are not allowed to have while doing so. Thank goodness I live in a country where I am free to do that. How I come across is for the reader to determine…and if you want to see me as that…again, you have that right…=) I hope you are successful in your future endeavors. As far as, Mr. Hill goes, yes, he was someone’s child. He was someone’s friend. He was probably someone’s father. All of this does nothing to change the fact that he committed suicide. Where was his support? Where were you? Maybe, when Mr. Hill was walking to his final destination, he should have thought about everything you have just stated…. His parents…his friends…. His actions, his choices were selfish and cowardly pure and simple. I feel sorry for his family. I am sure they know the “religious repercussions that their son faces (if they believe in what is preached).

As far as me “sitting on the internet”, I don’t. This blog post actually took only 30-45 minutes at most. Do I need to direct you to our constitution…so you can read the freedoms?? Instead of worrying about me, writing about her grammatical errors (there were a lot), maybe you could give her some lessons to better express herself…in life…on Facebook….in her resume. I have never understood why laziness in grammar should be tolerated. If any of my closest friends, wrote me an e-mail with that gibberish, I would send it back to them…tell them to correct it so as not to embarrass themselves. Instead of her comment being picked apart, just on her fucked up spelling and sentence structure, let’s talk about its contents =)!!

From what I gathered, she stated that (in VERY short terms), his death was somehow a hidden plot by “The Man”!!! **Insert ominous music here** Why did she bring up race? Why didn’t she blame the bullet/gun manufacturers for giving Mr. Hill an easy way out?? Its people like her (and I did NOT say “YOU PEOPLE”) who continue the chain of “it must have been because he/she/we/them/they are black”. Why continue to talk about it? She, if she was THAT affected by his actions, should maybe take a look at her future. She would become a detective or work for the FBI. Maybe she could change the way she views the world. Why does it always have to contain a conspiracy?

The first thing I think about in the morning is “Yay, I woke up!” I don’t think about…nor do I mention, whenever things go wrong, do I ever say….”It’s Hitler’s fault that things are the way they are.” Or, “The reason I am so fucking fat is because butter is out to get me!! AAAHHHHHAAAA…RUN!!! Save YOURSELF!! Give me a fucking break!!! That is beyond LAME!!

As far as entitlements go…you ask? I think you need to research the differences between ENTITLEMENTS and RIGHTS! You wanting to be a nurse in the future should have already known that. You will have to KNOW and understand HIPPA…. Here’s a little bit about me: 1st I am a human 2nd I am a mother 3rd I am a wife 4th In the previous 3 reason’s, I did not list my RIGHTS to include: “I am white!”!! Does me being “white” mean I am naturally ENTITLED to certain things!! Nope! I have never blamed anyone else for my downfalls in life. I believe we are where we chose to be. In other words, where we are in life are due to our own paths we choose.

I have never seen color other than a huge box of Crayola crayons…Life is lived always in the gray. When my first child started school, they learned their colors. Then they had lessons on the differences between people. My child came home one day and described all of my child’s new friends to me. When my child got to the color part by saying, “He’s/she’s black.” I abruptly stopped my child and told my child to bring me a box of crayons. When my child returned, I instructed my child to show me a BLACK crayon. My child picked the right one. I then instructed my child to show me a WHITE crayon. Again, my child picked the right one. Then I had my child to look at all the colors in the box….pick out which crayon color best fits when telling about the classmates. Not a single time did my child pick up that WHITE or BLACK crayon. I am raising my children to be the same….I hope you are raising your children (if you have any) to ignore all life’s bullshit, and go and be successful in life…Are you? Or when your child “hits a rough patch” in life, that they should see if there was a conspiracy behind it!!?? Can he blame anyone else, instead of taking PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY, for his misfortunes??? Usually, when one of my children “hit a rough patch”, I teach them to GET UP….brush the dirt from your clothes and move on… Does this mean that Mr. Hill’s parents should sue all white people for their sons’ choice?? The gun/bullet manufacturers?? Why not blame the DOT…he walked on their asphalt to his finale. Are you fucking kidding me?? Does this mean, you agree with her?

I cannot help how anyone, on this earth perceives me. Anyone has the RIGHT to hate me or love me… I will respect their choice either way. If you think, and you do, that I am somehow better than everyone else….that’s your opinion…not going to argue with you. Everyone is allowed to have their own view on things around them. Just imagine if I actually entertained arguing with everyone around me if I didn’t agree with their views…. Instead, I absorb their views and try and understand things from their window to the world. You don’t do that do you?

As far as you telling me that because I am not black, that somehow I am too retarded to understand things?? HAHAHAHAHAHHA…. I am not black…I am not white…. I am HUMAN….DNA….molecules, cells nothing fancy…JUST HUMAN! Just by you saying that means that you have just made me a victim of reverse racism!! WOW! Hi, I am human, nice to meet you!! Maybe if everyone could just remind each other of that fact, this world would not be the way it is. If I don’t understand this, because I am not black I say, “BULLSHIT”!! Now there is an example of the same old same old over-used shit that people have been swallowing all their lives…I never drank from that cup!! Did you ever stop and think that I may not understand because I think racism is stupid…or silly…or that I in NO way participate in it?? Why does color affect my learning capabilities?? Be smarter than that…Seriously. That’s like saying because something is different, I nor anyone else, will never understand it….Well, WHY THE FUCK NOT??

By the way, there are a lot of other people on this earth…all different colors…Does that mean they are not included in the whole, “You don’t understand because you aren’t (INSERT SKIN COLOR/RACE)!” Or are they??

Did you miss the part about me not being from here? I never knew about race until I moved to SC. HAD NO CLUE. We didn’t have that where I am from….I never understood the big deal about one’s skin color. I have embraced every color of the rainbow when it comes to the people I CHOOSE to have in my life. Their ONLY requirement…Human. When you said, “assumptions here are often made based on race.” Is this also the part, when you stereotyped me, put me into the same pile that the “Assumption Assholes” are in? Nice! If that’s the way you feel….um…..OK. YOU HAVE THAT RIGHT!! YAY…Aren’t you happy??!!

I make no excuses or apologies for my 1st amendment rights. Your ending sentences spoke to me, too!

“There are times when I am judged based purely on the color of my skin.” Now, with that said, you judged me when you said I was cold hearted and insensitive. As stated above, I am HUMAN. If you see anything other than that….maybe you should change the world…or at least how YOU view it.