Ya know what I find sad? And before I get started… The
answer to your question….Yes, I know I should never assume where I stand with
Sadness to me is when you think you have a close/best-friend
and you realize, via Facebook, that you really are of no consequence to that
Things I would have done for that person….gone. Sacrifices I
would have made…gone. Telling them things you would’ve never uttered…..nevermore.
Random phone calls….nope. Just all of the normal things any of you would do for
your close/best-friend…down the drain. The saved up hugs...(because I don’t hug
|No Looking Back At Once Was....|
Close/best-friends, especially one’s you’ve held onto for
numerous years are very rare and seldom happen in a lifetime….It’s as if you
have to mourn that person, in some fashion, to be “OK” with knowing you’ve
Makes me wonder if I REALLY know, just where I stand with
anyone I feel close to…
I am hard to get close to…I am hard to understand sometimes…I
am hard to get to know when you first meet me in person….
For example, if I were to meet someone for the first time, I am very quiet…reserved….polite… (My mother raised me right…LOL)...watching the room and the other people who occupy the same space...
I think...no, I KNOW that I am like this because it is a defense mechanism for me. If I protect myself from the get-go, then I am more likely to be OK, later on.
I am "feeling", YOU, the new acquaintance out... I am watching your posturing, eye movement/eye contact, body language, speech patterns.... and I am watching the other people in the room too....ALL at once. Must be a benefit to having ADHD...
No problem here....just checking you out...